Thursday, December 31, 2009

Being a mother without my kids around really thought me somethings. I felt the emptiness and loneliness, the feeling was indescribable.

When i saw them yesterday, my life started cherish with love and happiness, the feeling was overwhelming and awesome. I smiled all the way, my mood was great and everything seems to be alright. That's funny when your kids can make your life miserable. Well, I'm also a child to my parents, I guess their feeling also the same when they knew that their daughter will be leaving them to be with other person, I mean when I got married.

Well that is life circle that we have to face in our life. Just be nice to your parents, love them as much as u want your children to love you when you are older. I will pray hard for my children safety and success. I just hope my children will love me as much I love them.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Yesterday when I surfed FB, suddenly my eyes caught a very interesting message from my ex classmate during Matriculation, Syurina. She was promoting her own blog and I took the opportunity to surf her blog. Oh my God, I just don't believe that she decided to quit her job and started her own business.

That really triggering me that if I want to do the same, I really need the encouragement from the one I love. I wish Syu all the best and good luck in realizing your dream. If you ask me, I would like to be like Syurina too. You will have more time with your children, watching them grow, be a good mum and wife to your family, be your own boss and manage your own time accordingly.

However not everyone has the opportunity, opps...well, let me think first and reword the sentence. Yes, everyone has the opportunity, the only thing differentiate between that statement is whether you are risk taker or not. Being an easy going person, I choose not to take any risk because I might lose my income from the current employer. At this point of time, I decided just go with the flows and when the times come, I will grab it immediately.

Let me be truthful, I did mention to a few of my friend about my dream. I wish to have my own business empire to be handed over to my children. I also want to get to known as a caliber and charismatic businesswoman like Datuk Azlina. Big and specific dream, well it not wrong to have a dream. That is why I always respect to those that already took a step ahead and dare to leave their comfortable zone. As for me, I hope I have the strength to do the same, maybe not now, but some day. I will ensure that one day my dream will be a reality. Only times will tell.

2010 is coming soon. Normally, when new year is around the corner, people will ask you what is your next year resolution. I guess that is the toughest question to answer because I'm not sure whether I have one. My life is so simple, I've planned for long,medium and short term goals, execute whatever I planned and reviewed it regularly. I don't wait until end of the year to review on it. As for me, by end of the year I will do a lot of calculation, you know the bonuses from the company, ASB and others investment.

Well, I think this year I need to have 1 resolution, 1 thing that I'm aiming for 2009 but yet to be accomplished. I need to build up and improve my circle networking with the long lost friend i.e my high school and university friends, my peers and my relatives. That's sound better, right? Better late than never, at least if someone ask me about my new year resolution, I already have the answer.

I would like to take this opportunity to wish Happy new year to all my family and friends around the world. Let this coming year to be better than all the others. Vow to do some of the things you have always wanted to do but couldn't find the right time. Call up a forgotten friend that might miss you a lot.

Drop an old grudge and replace it with some sweet and pleasant memories. Vow not to make a promise that you don't think you can keep. Walk tall and smile more from your heart. I wish you will look at least 10 years younger by giving away all the sweet smiles. Don't be afraid to say, "I LOVE U" and say it again. They are the sweetest word in the world and will make your heart grows bigger.

" Mas, let us arrange for gathering with our friends and talk about how to work from home ". A simple statement from a friend but very meaningful to me. Now, the only way for you to earn money from home is through electronic business or do blogging.


Those days I spent my leisure time by doing crafting, cooking and reading. I still doing the same activities that I love to do until now. The only changes that I've made recently when I saw an opportunity to earn extra pocket money through blogging. Well, since I'm happy writing all the life story, I think why not I just give a try. No harm trying.

I really enjoy doing my blog and I think as at today, that is the thing that I love to do most. Writing into my Blog is like writing my own diary, keeping all the feelings and memories into an electronic book.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

A love of my life


I never know that love can make us feel differently. I got married to a lovely man on 21st April, 1995. I guess that was love at a first sight and for both of us our love is a first love. I just knew that he is the one that will make me happy for the rest of my life.

I was so greatful that he has thought me a lot of thing especially in nuturing our love. He is a very soft spoken man and sometimes can be very romantic. I just loves him the way he is and hope he will love me forever and until death do us apart.

At the age of 22 years old, I got my eldest son, Tengku Danish Mirza. He was born when I'm still studying at UUM, if I'm not mistaken when I were in second year. Being young mother has thought me a lot of patient and financial management. I'm glad that the experience has helped me a lot in working out my financial management. Well, I'm still learning on managing my temper.

I've faced a lot of obstacles in managing our marriage especially when we have to carry a very big responsibility. By the age of 27 years, we already have 3 beautiful kids. Our financial doesn't really good during that time and we have to seek assistance from my father in law. What a great father he is. I'm so thankful that he had helped us a lot during that time. The only things that i regretted until now was my previous attitude towards my parents in law. I don't love them as much as I love my own parents. Anyway, that was past story, I had apologized to them but I don't really have the courage to mention which part that I'm sorry for. As Muslim, I've done my obligation to ask for a forgiveness. Alhamdulillah.

Looking to the people that closer to me and I love today which are my husband, Tengku Sharimi, my eldest son, Tengku Danish Mirza, my the only daughter, Tengku Nurul Qistina and my youngest son, Tengku Danish Muhaimin, I would say that they really bring joys and happiness in my life. I wish this love will remain forever and they never stop saying I love u Sayang or I love u Ibu because they are loves in my life.

When you come across a Taurus female, the first thing you will notice about her is her undefeatable emotional strength. She is capable of handling the severest of problems, without shedding even a single tear. She has the infamous Taurus temper, but it is seldom displayed. At

least not until the provocation is too much to digest. She is as feminine as any other female, without the unnecessary tantrums. A Taurus woman has no desire of dominating her husband. She will let him handle the reins, infact this is what she secretly desires.

A Taurus woman wants a real man, who can make her proud of himself as much as she is proud of herself. However, if he fails in his role, she will take the control in her own hands. Neither will she act like a mewing kitten, nor like a roaring lioness. She is independent and has a mind of her own, but she does not want to dominate in the relationship. Taurean women do not see social status while making their friends. They want to be friends with people who do not hide their true nature and come across as they really are.

Their friends may be a little weird, but they will not be phonies or hypocrites. A Taurus girl doesn't fight with people she dislikes, she simply ignores them and becomes indifferent to their presence. However, she will be loyal to her true friends and they will remain with her throughout her life. In return, she will expect them to stand by her when she needs them. A Taurean woman also gets jealous, but only if you exceed the limits of casual flirtation. Everything has a limit and this also does. It's better not to provoke her anger or you will be very sorry.

She is brainy, but not too much interested in intellectual subjects. She is practical in her thinking and does not feel the need to indulge in mental gymnastics. She is balanced in her approach and you will hardly see her in a restless disposition. A Taurean girl hates anything artificial, be the flowers in her vase or the friends in her life. She has to feel the fragrance of real roses and the presence of real people. The beauty of Mother Nature especially pleases her.

Ugliness of any kind makes her miserable and repulsive. She loves to be amidst colorful surroundings, like gardens blooming with flowers. A Taurean female has a good taste, so please be very careful before taking her out. She is a very good cook herself and you will always be treated to excellent homemade food. She is also very much interested in the art forms, like painting. She is a tomboy at heart and will enjoy many guy-things like horse riding, going on a roller coaster ride, fishing, etc.
All this makes her feel close to nature. She dresses simply, yet elegantly and her fabrics are always feather-soft. Taurus female is very strong and above the usual female insecurities. However, she demands loyalty and will never compromise in this area. She is beyond hypocrisy and has an undemanding and easy-going manner. She wants her man to take her side, especially in public. If he contradicts her in front of other people, expect the temperature to reach beyond the boiling point.

When pushed too far, she loses her cool demeanor quickly. Taurus women make excellent mothers, except for the fact that they cannot tolerate disobedience or defiance in kids. Laziness and carelessness also makes them angry. Otherwise, they will be more of a friend to their children than the typical mommies. A Taurus woman will also teach the kids how to be strong and will protect them from the big bad outside world. She never shirks from or whines about her responsibilities. Her man will be expected to do the same.

She can also bear endless pain and stress, without complaining for a single minute. She is good with finances and knows how to maintain quality in a reasonable budget. She is a very good host and will be there to help her man in any and every way she can. A Taurean woman will care for you when you are ill, will back you in your new business venture and let you take over the control of the home. And, you will always be treated to a warm, cozy home when you come back from office!

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